I think I posted a bit of this story at the beginning of my blog…
But now that I’m all fancy and organized I want to start my “Inspiration” section with a story about my journey so far.
When my husband announced that he wanted to leave me – in October of 2011 – I was 215 lbs. And honestly, I could have been heavier than that at some point. I didn’t really ever pay attention. I wanted to die. But worse (in a way)…I didn’t blame him. I had never had much self-esteem. I hated the way I looked and I hated the way I felt. I hated the way that he sometimes looked at me.
I went through all the usual ministrations…trying to get him to change his mind…trying to change myself so he’d stay. (The short version is that he’d already been cheating on me and lying for quite some time so by the time he had the guts to announce it, there was no way that he was changing his mind…) But one day I decided that I needed to take control of my life. It was, after all, just going to be my life. I couldn’t wait around for anyone to live it for me. And while 215 isn’t morbidly obese, it was heading in the wrong direction. Somehow I never gave any thought to all the weight-related health issues I’d heard about. They were for OLD obese people, not me, right? Wrong. You are never too young to start caring about your health and fitness.
My ex decided him and his girlfriend (now wife already) were entitled to take our dog. He was a Pomeranian named Cody. Cutest thing in the world…but let me say…not an “exercise-friendly” dog. So I was angry. But I have a friend who is very active in animal rescue (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED BY THE WAY!!!) …and she told me about this dog she found who sounded like my soul-mate. She was abused by a man (or multiple?) so she had major trust issues and was hard to place in a “traditional home” i.e. one with a husband around. And as a bonus, she was a collie mix so she was massively active. I adopted her in February of 2012 and have been in love ever since!
My doggie and I started walking. Every *&#$! day.
Since I’d made the decision to adopt her, I couldn’t let HER down and keep her locked up in an apartment all the time. Turns out - best decision I ever made! I lost my first 20 lbs. (maybe more) just by walking her every possible day. Anyone who is just starting out with fitness needs to know this – walking is great! Just because you aren’t biking 50 miles or bench pressing 100 lbs. (or whatever) doesn’t mean you aren’t teaching your body how to move…teaching your heart rate how to elevate. It WORKS. Just try it!
Today – I’m down 45 lbs. from the worst (that I knew about). I’ve made the decision to do it the “long” way. I.E. strength training as well as cardio…and no crazy diets! Just eating right and doing my best not to eat everything in sight.
Once I started doing it for me, and for my dog, it came together. I can see so many good things on the other side now, its almost unreal that I was staying in my marriage and trying to be happy. I’m so much better off. I don’t recommend divorce. But I do recommend a healthy dose of self-esteem. You are worth a good diet. And you are worth the time it takes to work out and keep yourself strong and happy. Trust me. <3
~ SomedayFit Girl